There is an evil twin
that lives within
the eyes I see in the mirror.
Her strength, it grew
and before I knew
I had come to fear her.
She lives inside
and has not died
although I thought she had.
I hear her voice.
I have no choice.
It nearly drives me mad.
Lust and pride
subtly hide
beneath her sly façade
and all the while
she seems to smile
lovingly at God.
From deep within I hear a cry:
the me-I-want-to-be screams, “crucify!”
Dying to yourself,
the ultimate war,
denying the things
the world strives for.
DIE! Die evil twin
I want no more!
No more of you and your evil lies!
No more of the things that I despise.
I humble myself in the sight of Him
who gave me His strength
and forgave my sin.
I fear no more that dreadful twin,
but each day I must die
to the lie within.
jth- 1/23/92
