I did because you said I couldn’t.
I did because you said I wouldn’t.
All my life I’ve been shaped by you.
Not doing what you’d want me to.
When did it change, this disdain?
When did I cry out in pain?
When did it start,
and when did I stop, hating you?
Now I see in you, what I never saw.
Your push, your drive, your stubborn will; replaced.
Two words actually changed it all.
“I’m sorry,” you said to me.
Your “I’m sorry” set me free.
I can chose to love you now.
I can refuse to hate.
Your words gave my heart new eyes.
I see a different man.
My eyes see you wasting away and my heart breaks because you said you were sorry.
You realized at some point that you had crushed my soul. I felt your disapproval. I knew I was not who you wanted me to be.
It took years for you to garner your strength; however, you became strong by admitting you were wrong.
You bowed your pride and loved me.
It would be easier to lose you if I didn’t love you now.
I can because you said I couldn’t. I did because you said I shouldn’t.
You shaped who I have become.
Intentionally or unintentionally you taught me how to be who I am.
Now, in this…Daddy, may my LOVE shape you.
I know you thought that it couldn’t.
It has, though I know you thought that it wouldn’t.
