My world stopped spinning when I heard.
The earth continued in its orbit, carrying me with it, but time, as I know it, stopped.
Blood froze in my veins, movement, and momentum, impossible, as I struggled to process even a simple thought.
Those around me continued in the minutia of life while I was left gasping for breath and being.
Nothing pierced the unreality.
Nothing penetrated the solitude or the incapacitating silence.
On the day you took your life, you left me with nothing but frozen tears and unbearable unbelief.
I had no idea your pain was so overwhelming.
I hate that you felt desperate.
I hate that I had no idea.
I hate that I lost an irreplaceable part of my soul.
My-Boy.
Why did you go?
I hate the idea that I have no idea.
Suicide:
I hate you. I hate the incomprehensible lie you tell. I hate your devastation.
I hate you. You took life. He was precious and valued to me.
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If you’ve read this far:
Please make note of these numbers. Anywhere in the U.S. – 24/7/365
Suicide Emergency- call or text 988 for yourself or emergency help for another
OR:
Call SAMHSA- 1-877-726-4727 Again, available 24/7/365 (That is every hour of every day all year long.)
SAMHSA (Substance Abuse and Mental Health Administration)
